I tend to have an all or nothing personality. If I do
something, it is with every ounce of my being, or I don’t do it at all. I often
will jump in with both feet and then try and figure out how to keep my head
above water.
I think this personality trait has helped me to be
successful in most of my endeavors. It makes me very productive in the
workplace, it is part of why I always did well in school, and it is why I have
achieved most of my personal goals. The down side is that I sometimes miss out
on things because I am eyeballs deep in my latest challenge or I get stressed out because there is too much to do.
This fall I have been particularly bad about this. As I mentioned
in my post about fear of race commitment, I am currently training for a
marathon. That means that a good portion of any weekend is spent running,
especially since I am not the fastest runner in the world. My myopic focus has
caused me to say no to a variety of events and activities, because I was
worried about how they would impact my training and all I want to do is finish.
Right now I am looking for a balance between training,
working and having a life. Not to mention those everyday tasks that still need
to get done. I really want to finish this race because this is the third time I
have trained for it and probably the last time I will be able to train this hard for a while,
but time goes by so fast and I worry about the things I am missing out on. I want to explore my new town with the hope it will someday feel more like home.
